u answered with a cheery voice.....
till u found out it was i who is on the other line..
and then everything changed...
your voice..
your manner...
i could even hear ur smile turning upside down..
your sentences were;
short..
brisk..
forced..
and i knew the cheery hello wasnt meant for me...
the smile u wore wasnt for me..
the expectant tone of voice wasnt for me..
i wish it was..
owh how so many things that i wish..
so many..
so futile..
so..
lost...
and then i thought..
really..
what am i doing..
no idea..
no clue..
and then i smiled..
a million things running through my mind...
overwhelmed..
engulfed..
drowned...
for lack of better word..
empty..
i was..
empty....
